Today's Loss: -.4

R2 Total: -28.2

Very happy I woke up to my period today.. and still lost! I get a little nervous every time TOM comes a little late cause I timed my hike so I wouldn't have it... every time its late it gets a little closer to my hiking date.... Just one more period till then and I think I have a few days leeway next month.. one more thing I don't have to worry about.

I decided to fill all my syringes today so I know exactly how many more days I'll be on P2. It should work out well cause I have 5 left which means if I skip today (my regular skip day) and tomorrow cause of my period, my LIW will come on Friday which should give me 4 days of bigger losses before I stop. Then I'll be hitting major workout mode trying to get in shape for the mountains.... Wow, in just over a month I'll be walking through the majestic rockies meditating on how thankful I am for hcg and being able to hike again!

One last thought... when your fat, your invisible... not just with men, but people in general don't notice you.... Although I've been suspicious the past little while that I've had the odd glance from the odd man... this week I had two guys obviously check me out... it was almost a little unnerving. Then my negative thinking gets in the way... one occasion I was driving and the first thing through my mind was 'oh ya, but he doesn't see my bottom half!' So instead of smiling and saying to myself 'Damn your good', I automatically put myself down... must work on that! I also seem to be getting more social invites which is nice but kind of annoying at the same time... I think, what... wasn't I good enough before??? Of course that may not be entirely about my appearance either... maybe I'm a more positive person since I've been losing weight so people feel more inclined to hang out with me.... anyway just wanted to put that out there... been on my mind for awhile...

There are two ways of meeting difficulties. You alter the difficulties or you alter yourself to meet them. Phyllis Bottome

Today's Loss: -.8

R2 Total: -27.8

Been a crazy day, but wanted to post my loss....  see tomorrow!

Today's loss: -.6
R2 Total: -27

My body seems to be happy with .6's these days... wish TOM would come!!! Here is a photo of my 50 pound present to myself! I love shoes.... I went to the shoe store determined to get something I wanted... not something I needed... I saw these and we fell in love... aren't they purrrdy???

* I don't know who invented high heels, but all women owe him alot. Marilyn Monroe

Today's loss: -.6
R2 Total: -26.4

Hit the 180's today! 189.4... good bye 90's... can't say I'll miss you!

Thanks so much Brooke for suggesting I reward myself for reaching that milestone... hadn't thought to do that! It was a bit of a quandry since so many rewards are illegal on P2 like massage, manicure, food... I had decided to go get roller blades, then someone suggested on the hcg forum that I buy some shoes... I LOVE shoes! I'm thinking about getting some nice spikey heels... maybe I'll get both the roller blades & the shoes... I'm working on thinking that I'm worth it!!

I also put on more makeup than I really should on P2, curled my hair perty & visited a couple of offices I used to work at.. one office is awesome with people I love.. the other office... well lets just say they aren't the nicest people except for one friend I made while I worked there. Both visits were a fun reward for totally different reasons.. The first was great with everyone telling me how awesome I look (yes, I soaked it up!) The second, I felt a vindication to go back almost a year after leaving knowing how much better I look . Leaving such a stressful work environment was one of the reasons I felt ready to take this weight off... not only did I put weight on working there, but I just couldn't concentrate on myself cause I was so consumed with work. I have to admit my heart was racing as I climbed the stairs to the bad office... it was shocking how all those horrible feelings came racing back to me and I realized how greatful I am that I left such a negative place.

When I got home I did something I haven't done in months... I went straight to the fridge and opened it to look in... I couldn't believe I did it! My knee jerk reaction to a stressful situation... no I didn't eat anything but it sure drove home the point of how many things we do on an emotional level that we don't even notice unless of course you on hcg and can't eat through your feelings.

By seeking out vegetables of varying colors (BEST CHOICE: tomatoes), you'll automatically get a range of phytonutrients, each of which has its own particular health promoting strengths. These colorful plant foods also happen to be incredible sources of soluble and insoluble fiber - both essential for hormone balance and impossible to get from animal products. - Master Your Metabolism, Jillian Michaels

Today's loss: -.6
R2 Total: -25.8
Total Loss: 50.2!!!!

Wow, I'm so happy!!!! I'm now exactly at 190.0 and officially at my hiking goal. Life is good, I just wish I would have listened to my sister Lana sooner and started hcg last year..... but hey, I'm on my way. Next stop is the 180's.... yipppeee!

My friend Mandy called to go for a walk and it was such a sunny day I thought it was a great idea... she knows I'm still on P2 so she tried not to go too hard on my so that was nice. She lives in a the middle of a huge hill & I did have to push it a little bit. Man, did I ever get tired last night.... had to take a nap around 6:30pm, must have been the walk. I'm sooo looking forward to P3 where I'll have the energy to start training for my hike. I love exercise & love pushing myself so we'll see what kind of shape I can get in within 4 weeks. (from the time I end P2 till my hike)

Down to around 13 days left on P2 depending on when I get my period. I always lose bigger numbers for about 5 days after TOM says good bye so I'm hoping to stretch things out a bit & stay on hcg till the 'pound a day' numbers stop. If my period comes on schedule that is.


Left my book on my bus so will have to stick with inspirational quotes this morning.

Life is 10% of what happens to me and 90% of how I react to it.- John Maxwell

Today's loss: -.4
R2 Total: -25.2

Yesterday I realized that I could probably squeeze back into my super duper sucker shorts.... these things REALLY suck me in but would have cut the circulation off at my thighs if I tried them on any earlier.... yes, I was able to squirm into them and wear them to my Sunday meeting. Instead of trying to cover myself up with a blazer as usual, I decided to just wear a top with my skirt.... first time in YEARS that has happened.... I received a lot of comments on my weight loss so that was nice... I love those shorts!

Also had that hcg sudden burst of energy (or it could be that sudden burst of energy I get just before my period???) and I attacked my bedroom with a vengeance. I kept thinking of the Biggest Loser and how it showed Tara's feelings about herself reflected in her bedroom. I'm wondering if this is a sign I'm liking myself more these days??? hmmmm something to ponder.

I'm looking after a friend's house right now & they stock the house with the most amazing food!! I have chosen not to stay there just in case I have a weak moment. I can't help myself from going in the fridge and freezer just to look at the cheese, wine, sausage, pop and many, many other yummy snacks full of chemicals I can't pronounce let alone spell.... those were the days!! (I think I've said that before????)

Lisa: Stick to your guns on maintenance.... you can do it!!!!

I thought this was good advise for Phase 4... those lovely starches:

Aim for less than two servings of starchy vegetables a day. If you're going to have them, try interesting types like parsnips, a proven cancer fighter, or beets, full of folate to help lower levels of heart-attack-inducing homocysteine in the blood. I'm also a fan of sweet potatoes, packed with free radical-fighting beta-carotene and vitamine C. Anything but the usual suspects of corn, peas, and potatoes - God knows you don't need more corn!-Jillian Michaels, Master your Metabolism

Today's loss: -.2
R2 Total: -24.8

I guess I'll just have to get used to the miniscule losses till TOM comes & goes. Which means I can't have any expectations for at least a week or so arrrhhhhgggg!! My yard is waiting for me to give it some TLC so since I don't have anything too exciting to say I'll end with a quote from Jillian's book:

After age 20, basal metabolic rate drops about 2% per decade; after 40, it slows down 5% per decade.- Master Your Metabolism, Jillian Michaels